Oh, the places…

is my utmost for his highest?
19 October, 2010, 3:00 pm
Filed under: learning process, TRUST

today i read this : “You have no idea of where or how God is going to engineer your future circumstances, and no knowledge of what stress and strain is going to be placed on you either at home or abroad. And if you waste your time in overactivity, instead of being immersed in the great fundamental truths of God’s redemption, then you will snap when the stress and strain do come. But if this time of soaking before God is being spent in getting rooted and grounded in Him, which may appear to be impractical, then you will remain true to Him whatever happens.” this excerpt is from Oswald Chambers’ My Utmost For His Highest’ October 19 entitled ‘The Unheeded Secret’.

just what i needed to read…i am soaking before God. And I have no idea where or how God is going to engineer my future circumstances. -c


where i’m at
15 October, 2010, 4:40 am
Filed under: late night thought, TRUST, Uncategorized, what now

i’m burdened. i need to find a healthy, spirit-filled, mission-minded, Jesus-loving, Gospel-sharing, body-connecting church here. i know where to find that in places i am not. a sweet friend of mine shared this with me just now, Matthew 11:28-30 28“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Thank you Lord, that you care for me and my pursuits. this is still a journey, even when i find myself back on a familiar road. -c

we’re going to the other side
23 August, 2010, 12:22 am
Filed under: learning process, TRUST

Jesus is the one who asked me to get in this boat. You bet we are going to the other side. Who knew it would be a journey across the great blue Pacific. it’ll be great to be back. I’m just a little sad to leave already…the next adventure begins in 3 days. -c

come on!
17 August, 2010, 6:02 am
Filed under: dare i say..., learning process, TRUST

it doesn’t mean i’ve failed. so let’s can the label ‘failure’. it does not mean i’ve given up. X out the label ‘quitter’. it doesn’t mean it was a mistake so let’s throw out the label ‘sadly mistaken’. this adventure was full of LIFE. packed with exciting things, challenges, laughs. so what i’m leaving earlier than “planned”…what’s a plan anyway? all i know is i’ve been promised plans to prosper, not to be harmed, hope and a future. (jer. 29:11) revelation and redirection or simply a turn in the road happens all the time. and you know what? you just gotta be ready. that’s why we live by faith and not by sight. that’s why it’s called trust and not entrapment. it can get sticky and it can get wild. the road is narrow but the burden is light. i just say ‘YES’. The rest is up to my Anchor to determine. where to? maybe the dark path that will soon be lit up or perhaps the ancient paths, the good way (jer. 6:16). all i need to know is the voice behind me saying, “this is the way, walk in it” (isa. 30:21). my perseverance in the pursuit of my dream is unwavering. i’ll keep on. i will not look back but i will reminisce. my eyes are fixed. the harvest is ready. here we go! -c

17 August, 2010, 12:42 am
Filed under: TRUST, what now

i leave Australia in 10 days and it scares the living daylights out of me.

although scared, i’m not afraid. the peace is unwavering; the excitement, matchless really to any other time i can remember. the sadness is there. it creeps its blue face up every day or so…when something i think is beautiful is found, whether it be a place or person or word pairing( aussies have a special way of speaking) or when a dear new friend makes me laugh. that’s what i’ll miss most about this place, the faces that have become FAMIL(Y)air and the hearts that are sweet. i am thankful that as i go i don’t have to leave in my dust the newfound relationships. the pen pals i’ll have when i get back to Alabama are many. keeping in touch is so very important; i don’t know any lasting, meaningful friendship that stands without it. do you know what i mean? friends, i want to talk to you. i want to hear about your days, full in minor detail and vibrant in color—even the gray. you are special to me.

can’t wait to read to your letter in the mail. now, i’ll continue to have a listen to the wonderfully ambient the sleep design, specifically track no. 7 ‘you are my home’. play count 68. -c

“we live in a wonderful world that is full of  beauty, charm and adventure. there is no end to the adventures that we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open.” -jawaharal nehru, Indian primeminister 1947-1964

13 August, 2010, 4:19 am
Filed under: TRUST

“Look at the birds of the air… See how the lilies of the field grow.”

Rest easy. Do not worry. Ask, seek and knock. Believe. As we wait, things will shift and change in very tangible ways. In whom do I trust? The very One who whispered the stars into their place. – c

the heart of life
15 July, 2010, 6:36 am
Filed under: learning process, TRUST

Pain throws you heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No, it won’t all go the way, it should
But I know the heart of life is good

-John Mayer, The Heart Of Life

For the time being I am living with some beautiful girls in Bella Vista. My gorgeous friend, Tessa, is home in Capetown for 2 weeks. The room she shares with Annie and Christian is my temporary place. Thank the good Lord above for her. My friend Gabby is also staying in this same house for a couple weeks with her friend from Florida! Kylie is an amazing girl, just fresh off the plane from Jacksonville! I am excited that we can all have fun together. It was a pleasant surprise when I heard we would all for a short time be housemates. I am okay. I am continuing to explore my housing options here. I am praying for knowledge and discernment. And I am asking for divine strength to trust in His hand. YEAHHH! Greater things are still to be done….

in a season of tears,they remind themselves of their dream, they remind themselves of good things promised. psalm126:1-6

I am praying for you. -c